Tuesday, 9 December 2014


I sit and click my fingers, set a beat to.speak to - spit rhythms dug from dirt and forged deep within the sinews. This mantra is my own, I loose a tongue to testify towards the setting sun that I'll be meditating on the weight of all that glittery gold that's won, to test whether the worth was it, whether sleep can finally come. I sit and click my fingers, set a beat to speak to, and wish peace to all my brothers, sisters trapped deep within the tombs.

Sunday, 7 December 2014



Demons are just Ghosts that carry a cross, Christ is a light only lit by the lost, Buddhas the shoulda-woulda-coulda done better, awake at night making the heart strings heavier. 

Tuesday, 25 November 2014


tongue percussion questioning the depths of mans affair with the abyss
like we were never meant to be, but we are what we is. 

Wednesday, 19 November 2014



"There is no such thing as artistic graffiti or graffiti art. It is an oxymoron. Graffiti is the crime of freedom. It is the willful disregard for criminal codes not artistic ones. In a society filled with rules and conformity, graffiti writers are a dangerous element. Enjoy the crime of graffiti. Civilization depends on it."

Sunday, 2 November 2014



"Find the things you wish to serve or find peace with whatever thing you fall into serving. "

Thursday, 30 October 2014


man is a rational animal but not a reasonable one 
knows one too many words but doesn't recognise the the silver gilded snake sitting slyly on his tongue.
if context is everything then we might as well call it off because this calibre of existence is nothing but the single breath between the earth and bottom of the coffin drop. 

Education isn't inspirational, my sister - a loving caring passionate girl has been convinced she's doomed to treated the water, swimming circular believing that she's nothing but the mulch that churns this fragrant world. 
And there is nothing more upsetting than hearing your mother say she wants to die
There is nothing more cutting than hearing your sibling moan that intelligence, above her head is meant for someone else to prize.

for each according to their need
from each according to their ability

Because i see nothing but sticky fingers gripping as the golden honey drips and i want nothing but my sister to understand it is enough to just exist. 

Tuesday, 16 September 2014

Tuesday, 1 July 2014

notes from the underground. 

'Beneath The Pavement…The Beach!' once rang out across a nation in turmoil, and despite our immediate landscape not being one of revolution - man is a political animal, and every move made is surely an assigned one. 
We had come gathered in Airspace to put our heads together to grow some ideas (through interaction) on how we could bring new light to a city that seemed remarkably confused about its current position in history. What once was, now wasn't, what could be, still unsure. Industry has bottomed out but left us with notes on the dangers of wealth & prestige grown in a speciality. Stoke-on-Trent could be said to be entropy encapsulated, but I will stake my claim and stick my flag into the shifting sands that it is precisely because of this that there is a palpable potential here, and it has become apparent that it is not only I that believes this. Take up your shovels again, the time for digging graves has passed. 

Remarks: Anna Francis was the ground of being, confident in that which we can find in the soil belong us - we should treasure the all too missed beauty of the natural world, replete in its oft-ignored splendour. With her everything was illuminated as made, the buildings are brick which stand not as immoveable monuments in our mind, designating pathways and practices but rather something that has been propositioned, something that we have put there. Something moveable, something culpable for our crimes, great concrete cloaks over ideas like a child who roars beneath a sheet with eye holes cut into it. 

Mark Gubb held humour in his practice, street signs taken out of context can become awfully confusing when married with the unlabelled sprawl of a country park. This registered a subtle nervousness in my mind, I am want to progress via the rules of the sign but know that given the forest setting it is completely ridiculous to. His atmosphere was light-footed and buoyant, citing the curiousness in tribute bands playing in the settings that their progenitors had graced. He tore a hole into the subtleties of the small acts of storytelling in life, projecting them through Art.

Dan Thompson has beaten a different path in life and this has given him a refreshing view of Art and its usage, he spoke without the strict confines of Art History behind him but instead ran with creativity in its purest form - this gave him an addictive, charming power that radiated a distinctive energy. Through him I learnt to just do, do not spend months agonising but rather get out - leave the house before you find a reason to stay in, take to the streets with eyes ablaze and do, just do. His tone was revolutionary, propounding maxims that he had gathered from years of experience in public space - most importantly of all that we must talk to each other, we must converse, we must collect stories and work outwards from there. Our power is misdirected as singular beings bent on branding - the real importance is unity. By the end my pitchfork was sharpened and I wanted to stand and clap forever, benevolent righteousness, I was ready to charge the gates. 

Acts: Upon taking to our groups we ventured out into the city to begin to dissect its details. Being a resident of the place I found this intriguing, as my assumptions were confronted at every turn and i was thrown into a new light regarding my surroundings, taken out of my usual way of living - a fresh start in a old town. I learnt to recognise my every step. 
From then on the conversations during the day were excitable, we had sunk deeply into the feeling of infinite potential that was capable - we had been tasked to build and our imaginations were already constructing. 
This was noticeable in the stiff and marked reaction Council Regeneration operative Steve Ralphs received upon the end of his speech. He defended himself well, parrying away our aggressively inquisitive advances upon his notions and reasons for public space designation. We were Wolves, he a well guarded Shepherd. 
But what this conversation unearthed was the horrifying amount in the city of what The Guardian had recently come to term 'Hostile Architecture'; Architecture that was tokenistic - Public Space designed to form the aesthetic of being for the people that was actually anything but. The sloped seats and Skateboard stoppers actually shouted: your interests & idiosyncrasies are not welcome here, you are to be uniform in your interaction and distant in your admiration. The whole city had become an overbearing 'Keep Off The Grass' sign. 
These aspects proved passionate within the group, once the worldwide home of Pottery innovation and design Stoke-on-Trent was being reduced to just another modern city. With further consultations regarding the positive & negative aspects of the city the urgency seemed to grow, we must do something - lest gentrification swallow us whole. 
Taking to the city again to see its night time economy, or lack of, we sunk away into the evening rolling hands over each other in anticipation. 

The next day held a reaffirmation of purpose and a further cementing of yesterday burgeoning friendships. No longer singular people from distinct circumstances, we had moulded into an amorphous mass of hopeful creativity. 
We set out again into the wilderness, only purposefully silent this time - an act i found extremely useful. However delightful and inspiring talking to people can be it is sometimes suffocating to be surrounded by possibilities which shift from millisecond to millisecond, each thought being surpassed by the ecstasy of its more developed kin. This demanded silence echoed between us and I found myself looking at things more deeply, fully delving into my own explorations and defining what I had learnt. 
It is not about looking, it is simply about seeing in the most simple of ways, what is directly in front of you. The idea of looking requires a sort of effort that is beset by personal prejudice but to simply let the environment guide your vision and rest organically upon momentary points of interest is unspeakably stronger. This act of resting is subtle but acute in its accidental observations. From Karl Greenwood suddenly pointing out that there was, infact, a bin for each of the 4 benches that sat within a 5 metre radius of each other to someone else saying how the brownfield site was actually a glowing, incredibly active site for anything but weeds (as i have oft looked over it as) these sudden interspersions of vision were the most profound attacks of the 2 days. Leading me to form a mantra that the most valuable thing you can do as an Artist is question your own assumptions. Even as an Artist, someone bought in to wield his supposed powerful creativity I still move down the same roads and follow the same signifiers as the rest of this town and for any real change to be enacted this must be killed.
In a way you must live outside of your own geographical existence. 

How do we engage the movers and shakers though? was our next question, how do we reach out a hand covered in paint and demand that the glistening shine of an ironed suit accept it? 
This has always been a problem, we appear to live different and terrifying lives to those unknowing. I felt like a hired outsider. A supposed disparity between those with power and us emerged, they surely cannot think like we do? rang a cautionary tone in discussions upon how to present our ideas. There is something wonderfully bizarre in the canyons between strangers and their numbered professions so we build a bridge, most carefully constructed, and hope the olive branch sticks.
It must be immersive, they must be as enveloped as we are! they cannot see without experience so we must provide such a show. This I agree is paramount, everything must be done, they must feel embraced and safe. We have spent so long immersing and proving to our paradigms that we do infact know what we're doing that to be suddenly confronted by anothers world view and expected to understand its circumference can be daunting indeed. 
The Artists world is welcoming, you must only trust us. 

After a careful consideration of any seeds of ideas we said our goodbyes, the task in hand that we must build a present for the city. Because that is it really, we are not forceful individuals bent on the egoistic reign of a desired space but members of a community who simply say 'thats weird, why is that..that' and try to twist notions of space. 
That existence might find itself anew under something akin to an opticians voice asking 'better or worse?' when given new perspectives of vision. 



















Monday, 30 June 2014



i wrote this after my mother died 2 1/2 years ago, its been in the drafts of my tumblr since then.
Interesting.

death and other things.
3 months on.

today marks the 3 month anniversary of my mothers death, the cause i’ll be finding out on the 30th of this month. it has changed me irreparably as a person, a part of me disappeared when she died, and i can’t quite describe which part but all i know is that i am a lot more self-aware these days. it made me realise how much - even subconsciously - parents come into your everyday actions, even the smallest of things sticks in my throat.  it’s not that i now find myself aware of when i think “what would mum think” but that i am now aware that in a lot of things i did there is a certain feeling you associate with your parents that you find as a justification of your actions, its the most minuscule of things and I’ve never noticed it before but you could say its like a background noise, a cement wall behind you that you never notice, but that has now become apparent. it’s not a phrase, or words, just a certain twitch of the consciousness that allows you do to things. incredibly hard to describe as its milliseconds long. 
the grief has sunk in, it’s not an everyday thing anymore, my priorities have switched but because of this the stabbing memories and realisations are now a lot more painful when they do. the strength of the grief is still the same, still incapacitating when it hits, just shorter. i’ve learnt to ignore it (and i realise thats completely wrong) and focus my energy on positivity. 
i have no excuses anymore, everything i want to do ill do off my own back, she is my only reason for doing anything these days. she gets me out of bed, she provides me with what seems like endless energy & passion. 
whatever i accomplish in life, it’ll be because of her, and solely for her. 

one of the largest changes is that i now longer take anything for granted, be friendly to everyone, appreciate everything, everyone has their own lives, everyone is a universe and you should be pleased people have let you in even the smallest way. when you greet someone, look them in the eye and try to take in properly what they are saying. 

Tuesday, 17 June 2014


You'll be taken as far as your confidence lets you
the adventure as strong as the amount of steps that you prove.
Breathe deep, hold your heart in your hand & slyly slip knowledge into every cunning plan
because the abyss will gaze long into you, its has your history on its side and it knows what you do. 
It'll sink in, to the caves of your being, sat heavy like a stone for however long it finds appealing.

It will snarl its teeth and wait, sleep sound inside your ribcage.
You will be taken as far as your confidence lets you.
You men made of stone, steady rusting your metal
hey Achilles! how's the ankle?
Is Hercules still hobbling afraid of his back still?

You immortals, you men of plenty
untouchables sporting desire offensive, bric-a-brac brains and lack of perspective
oh faith of men, how secure you are to your hours of sunlight
how tight and rigid your movement shave become.

You must learn to face the night.



Thursday, 29 May 2014

live

Bury Tomorrow / Chunk! no, Captain Chunk / Demoraliser / Napoleon





















Tuesday, 20 May 2014


I live for those cats whom simply snarl back when I bare my teeth.
Those kids with green eyes and a killer instinct, finger guns in the air shooting the breeze all swagger about the daggers in their smile. 
The no rope's heavy enough to hang this hope humans who have clocked its all a game and now sit steady scoping like a snake who spotted where to catch a ladder, silently rolling the dice between fingers memorising the curves and turns.
so that when the throw comes, the full force of purpose kills any competition.

The plotters, the rats, the bombers, alley cats
and those seldom speakers keeping a faith lit religious in their heart.

This is for those biding-their-time motherfuckers, those who step still undercover. 

Those who work to find a want to need, those who need to work to want to but don't let dreary days shift their bones to nonchalance. 

Im with you, you fucks, let's collapse the castle, I've got no plans other than success
so i'll see you climbing over those bodies that mountain as the rest.  


We picked apart our brains in the Summer plumage of industries afterglow
placing feet to feet in ruins incomplete on land once lauded as gold.

The sun was setting behind piles of brick that once held so many individual histories, but not no more since the world moved on without a whimper and forgot the many miles it had forged with a million young hands.
The lack of presence where promise once was felt peaceful. 
Not like i was tampering with a sleeping lion but instead was buried in the ribcage of a dead god that was no longer relevant. 

Industry decays in the same organic manner as organic matter, the effects on the grieving are the same. 

But there is creativity in every crevice,
I held aloft a single tire whilst balanced on another upright and recited
"this too has passed, this too has passed"


Monday, 21 April 2014

Back then when she sipped our diction slowly.
I don't know what I'm feeding but this essence is malignant, theres shadows stuck to my lungs
and with every breathe i linger on for a few seconds in the haze of post existence
between two breaths, between two lives lost lighting over a garbage can fire in the bronx. 
This flats too small, I keep feeding my hands some delicate plans
but i'll meditate on it and sip spirits with this spirit that is glimpsed in the flickr of a streetlamp
keep it close to my heart.


I drank so much coffee i fucking spewed! i fucked it all goal like and cast my tongue to the sky.
yo DJ turn your fucking treble down mate - this is ludicrous, I'm trying to have a decent conversation with some low eyed brothers and i cant hear the bile i spit from my stomach. Im yelling parables like theres no tomorrow and they sit and lurch their ears without hearing a damned thing!
How is the lot supposed to come together, I'm done banging my fist, they cant hear shit.
This Motown loudness ain't settling well in my stomach, I'm a luddite for technology, prone to sit and strum some old one string tales about how she ain't coming home no more.
See my man long fingers keeps scratching, keeps muttering about maintaining and the golden goliath at the end of his road, he chats some rare shit but doesn't shift units just sits stifling looking all post mortem.

But you don't see him like I do, I see a here too big for ambiguity. He's a cat thats watched too many suns set, the kind who fought to understand beauty. I've watched him bury love and cradle success bigger than Everest. because he's just a kid i knew that got overtaken by age, whose shadows switched sides.
But he sunk low - he saw too much, many masks. Caught too many daggers in smiles and sunk behind the concrete poles of bridges, waiting.